I’m greedy. Anyone who knows me well, will agree.
I want everything, now. And generally I want a lot of it. So while yesterday I was on statistics sugar high, going crazy over all the sweet candy of my awesome site stats, today I’ve crashed.
I’m perplexed by the flow of traffic, who it is, how they get here and why today is so dismal compared to yesterday – which kicked ass. I know today isn’t over. But that doesn’t console me. I know that I haven’t been doing this very long, but that only frustrates me.
The Good Jen is saying, “Stop being a baby, your friends have gone ape sh*t about supporting you on this. Just be grateful”. The Bratty Jen is saying “But no-one is reading me today. Whhyyyyyyyyyyyy???”
I’m plagued by self-doubt. Who was I kidding? Why would anyone want to read about my life? Why am I doing this? Maybe I should just delete everything. Well I couldn’t be bothered so I guess I’ll just continue to write about things I’m not sure anyone else is interested in, obsessively check my stats and then beat myself up in private.
(slumped shoulders, sad frowny face).